This morning, my dad died.
Paul Swain was kind and gentle, generous not just with material stuff but with his time. He was loving and knew crazy amounts of everything about everything, but was quiet and you’d never know he knew everything unless you engaged him. He loved gardening and woodworking.
The product of really bad childhood abuse, he made the conscious choice to be the antithesis of his upbringing.
He worked a factory job to support his family. When I was in little league, he sponsored a team so we could have uniforms; when I was in scouting, he volunteered as a wigwam leader and handcrafted “commando belts” for all of us, belts that we could put together to make a longer rope, and he took us snipe-hunting on camping trips. There was never a day that he didn’t have time to throw the ball around in the back yard, even after a full day’s work. He would pull to the side of the road on the way home from work to pick wild flowers for my mom and my grandmother.
He loved cats. My mom and dad fed every stray in New Mexico.
My parents were together for 55 years.
My imprisonment troubled him deeply, and he worried about me, felt powerless to change it. His last words to me, days ago, were, “I love you.”
He died in the hospital, days after triple bipass. As crushing as this is to me, I know my mom is taking it much harder. I worry about her.
He didn’t want a service. So, my mom will sit with him for a few hours and then he’ll be cremated, as he wanted. Very simple. No fanfare or nonsense. Then she’ll take his ashes home.
I want to look through pictures and remember, but I don’t think I would be able to hold it together. I’ll table that for later.
I am grateful to have had such an incredibly decent human being as my dad in my life. I have always aspired to be like my dad, to maybe have an impact on those around me that he had. I carry him with me. I know that if I were to ask him how I could honor him, he would say, “Live a good life. Be kind. Help people.”
I hope to do that.
Archives for March 2020
By Anarchist Prisoner Sean Swain
In October 2018, Trevor Matthew Clark left his position as Assistant Chief Counsel with the Ohio Department of Rehabilitation and Correction (ODRC), becoming legal counsel for the Ohio State University Medical Center. In his prior employment, Clark supervised a domestic torture program for the Ohio prison system. The torture he oversaw was admittedly employed as a response to “ideological” offenses, to punish and break political undesirables for their beliefs. Clark alleged that he tortured prisoners on orders of the FBI.
I was one of those prisoners. For a year, I was subjected to a program of sleep deprivation, filthy environs without adequate soap or laundry, and starvation rations that caused me to go from 220 pounds to 155 pounds. As part of the torture regimen, during the winter, I was held in a cell where the outer window was unattached, causing me to endure intolerable cold, continually, for months. Clark intercepted mail and then provably lied to the FBI to provoke investigation after investigation. His mail theft severed my human relationships and caused me total isolation from the outside world. Clark created a “training” program to indoctrinate staff to think of me as a terrorist and then unleashed them to torment me while I was locked away and incommunicado.
Clark’s domestic torture program took pages right out of the CIA KUBARK manual, replicating the program for torture at Abu Ghraib in Iraq.
In the middle of this year-long torture program, on March 27, 2012, Clark personally interrogated me and, when alone with me, he grabbed my crotch and attempted to solicit humiliating sex acts as quid pro quo to make the frame-up that he had engineered “go away.” When I did not acquiesce, he spent several years tormenting me and burning my life down, creating pretexts for my continued punishment, designed to discredit me and make me die in prison.
My sworn testimony relating details of torture and sexual abuse, related to human rights claims in international court, will soon be online at seanswain.org and @swainrocks.
In October 2018, Ohio State University Medical Center hired this sexual predator and criminal against humanity. Clark now has direct access to young, vulnerable, impressionable students and to defenseless, unsuspecting patients.
Anyone troubled by this should contact OSU Medical Center’s board of directors to demand they fire Trevor Matthew Clark. If you know students or staff, forward this article to them and encourage them to take immediate action to protect themselves and others. Urge them to circulate his photograph and to demand his termination.
Nonstudents can begin a petition drive at change.org, boycotting OSU until this sexual predator is removed. OSU Medical Center is no place for a rapist and torturer to wander the halls, seeking victims and using ruthless lawyer tricks to silence anyone coming forward. #metoo. #trevormatthewclark.